hilglover13:

“objects in mirror are more beautiful than they appear.”

hilglover13:

“objects in mirror are more beautiful than they appear.”

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teddywinters-rp:

I AM A SAP. LEAVE ME ALONE.

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Finale. 

How do you say goodbye to people you love? The people you consider to be family? In all honesty, you can’t. There are no amounts of letters, no right words you can say to say goodbye. And maybe it’s not goodbye forever, but what if it is? These people have become family. It’s a strange thought. A crazy one. That family could be found in asylum of all places. A place where it was normal to hear voices and see things you shouldn’t. Here is where I found family. I met a few of the best people I’ve ever met in my life. 

I met Colton, who taught me how to love and how to believe in myself. He showed me that I wasn’t defined by my disorder, and that I could be anyone I wanted to be. I met Jay, who taught me to stand up for myself and showed me what a real best friend was, even if that involved a lot of time. I met amazing girls I’ll never see again, like Lucky and Addy. I found a mother figure in Abbey, something I needed since my first day coming here. I found a little sister in Paisley, someone to protect and watch over. And I found someone to consider a girlfriend in Bonnie, my best friend since my first day here. Here is where I met my family. Here is where I found home. 

I still don’t know how to fully say goodbye. I’m not sure I ever will. But for now, this is the best I can do. I don’t know where I’m going, I don’t know who’s going with me. Running away seems kind of cliche, doesn’t it? But isn’t that what we’ve all been doing since day one? We’ve all been running away from our problems. Our disorders. So this is me, I guess, running away. Leaving for good, letting go of this part of my life. Everyone has to move on, and now this is my time.

I don’t want to be seen as Winters, Teddy - Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I want to be seen as Teddy Winters. Maybe just Teddy. Someday I’ll be a mother. Someday I’ll be a wife. Maybe someday I can be a daughter again, and a sister. I’m not going to lie and say I’ll come back and visit, because chances are, the people I want to see are gone as it is. I won’t be back, even if they find me. I’m not running. I’m not hiding. I’m leaving. I’m checking myself out. 

My therapist cleared it. I’ve done my required time here. I’m not a red flag case. I’m not ‘cured’ but they knew I wouldn’t be when they checked me in. Now, I am no longer defined by my disorder. I am no longer a patient. I am a daughter, I am a sister, I am a girlfriend. I am Teddy Penelope Winters. I am eighteen years old, and for the first time in what feels like years, I am free.

So, this is what it all boils down to. This is how it all ends. I walk out of here with the mindset that I am no longer a patient. I don’t have to question myself. Or ask for permission to do anything. I always said if I left here, I’d leave knowing I made enough progress I could. And I think I did. In the end I think I made the right choice. I chose happiness. I chose a life away from here. Isn’t that what it’s all about?

A voice in my head tells me otherwise, but I know I did. This is my goodbye. Good luck and goodbye.

“There will always be loose ends to tie up between friends, lovers, family. No matter what you do people will always bitch at the end of a story. I could live the most interesting end of my story and people would still bitch. So what do you do then? How do you stop people from bitching? It’s simple.

You go out… with a bang.”

I know this is a lot to ask, because I know you’re running the group as you want, but I’m closing Teddy out in a way that makes it so she can’t be here.. So could you possibly not open her back up? I know that’s asking a lot and it’s down a character, but, I feel like I have a right to close her out and not see anyone else play her..

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I MISSED YOU!!!!!!!!!

I MISSED YOU TOO. HI. HOW ARE YOU?

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HELLO HELLO YES I AM ALIVE